"but why was sitting, enjoying nature, or something like it, better than creating some representation of it? i never thought that way about it in the past, when it was a disposable camera, or an easel and watercolors.
remember a movie, rated R, in which
a girl was chopped in half
by a door that closed on her
and her memorial service
her memory was honored at? shattered
people are noble for their victimizations, it said.
element of true love
resonated through that. (gave purpose).
snake of sorts.
we glue to
that which speaks strongly about us, for us
as we ourselves are cheapened
which cannot be penetrated.
first woman lives there, carrying
with the juice of pomegranate
down the front of her shirt
which she had dribbled
. feeling fat.
"i've done it,"
calling upward, "there's nothing left
to want from me.
now release my family."
i'm not going to the woods. i've abandoned the woods. the pressure
to refuse abandonment
has gotten to me.
i will have a fresh start
this is how born agains are born.
i'm doing this for my brothers and sisters.